Wishcasting Wednesday: How do you wish to grow?

I love this week's question. I now can laugh and look at my growth over the past few years. I've learned to say "No" to people. I've learned to let my house be a bit messy. I've learned to schedule my creative time. Right now, I'm scrapbooking our cruise photos. Yep, a nice big fat scrapbook of overkill photos. You should see my craft room desk. It's over run with items to use in my scrapboooks. It's messy and it's delightful! I mostly listen to CNN when I scrap. Last night, they reported on Mitt Romney's and President Obama's election activities. Then, the poltical science scholors argued over both candidates. This wasn't on one subject, but an array of subjects. Call me crazy...but it was a comedy routine. What is promised is not what will happen. Hypocrosy at it's best. It makes me laugh because I know I'm being fed bullshit. How do I wish to grow? I wish to grow by 1. being creative in my woman cave. 2. continuing to learn the small things count in my life. 3. engaging in activity to heighten the experience of the small things in life. 3. going to sleep at when the sun goes down. I hope everyone has a great day!

Week #2: Weight Loss

I had a busy week last week. I was playing catch up, seeing clients who I was not able to see because I was on vacation. I didn't buy any lunches from our work cafeteria. I brought my lunch every day. My favorite lunch is yellow rice. With or without black beans. Yellow reice is 5 points per cup. One half cup of black beans is 2 points. It sustains me through the afternoon. My energy is better! I found I wasn't getting enough protein. Now, I use a hemp protein powder as my main source of protein. My hair isn't falling out like it did before. My fibro pain has been tolerable. I take my Voltarin gel every where I go. At home, I also useai Lidoderm patches. I now know to catch the pain early. If I let the pain progress to a point where it cannot be reduced, I sink into depression. Depression increases pain. It's a vicious cycle. I am happy to report I did not gain weight this week. The scale stayed the same. I'll post my progress next week.

Week #1: Weight Loss

HOPE

I felt I was losing weight through out the week but I didn't get on the scale. I used the Weight Wathers app on my new smart phone. It was so easy. I didn't workout. I have been recovering from a nasty cold. But, I wore my pedometer and tried to walk around as much as I could while working. It wasn't an easy week for me in other areas of my life. We learned my Son, who has 4 weeks left high school may not graduate due to goofing off this grading period. Since my Husband has better influence over our Son, I passed any info from his teachers to my Husband to deal with our Son. He said he turned in extra credit work and his regular school work, so he's hopefully brought up his failing grades by a few points. The thing is....this kid is smart. He just didn't want to do the work and doesn't want to become an adult who has to deal with real life. Did I mention the cold? I had a sinus infection, which cleared up before our cruise. The cold has been nasty and I had to take cold medication which I always hate the side effects. Yesterday, I began feeling better. Then, I went to my pain management doctor on Wednesday. My legs have been bothering me. He suggested I receive the shots which contain an anti-inflammatory medication. Ouch! Yesterday, my legs began feeling alot better. Work-oh, it always has me in a tizzy. I really need to reconsider my work. But, one thing at a time. With all my complaints, I still had a great week. I found two gardenia bushes in full bloom! Those flowers make me ground myself-understand my place in the world. One common theme in my head is, "You have to love you. Feel the fear and understand WHY you feel you shouldn't love yourself. Then, love yourself." This week, I lost 5.5 pounds. Life's journey is endless.

Wishcasting Wednesday: Where do you wish to go?

Where do I wish to go? On Saturday, we returned from our cruise. We had a fabulous time. But, I came back with a cold, which is finally starting to go away. I suspect by Friday, I will be feeling much better. Anyway, I already started a journey.....of where I wish to go. It's in the post directly below this one. So far, I am doing well with my journey. Thank you for visiting my blog!

The hardest and easiest journey of my life......

My Background:
40+ married Mom of a 19 yr son with special needs. I work full time with adults who have special needs. I am diagnosed with fibromyalgia, depression, OCD, osteoarthritis (knee and entire back), endometriosis and history of high cholesterol. Possibly have Epstein Barr Virus.

Became a Vegan 2 yrs ago. Became a semi vegan 1 year ago. Take alot of medication for fibro/OCD/depression/osteoarthritis. One medication worked well but I broke out in hives. Became a full time cheating vegan last week. We just returned from a cruise. I hate how I look in the pictures.

Hobbies: scrapbooking, reading, writing pen pals, watching TV. I enjoy walking my Jack Russell, Abby. I don't do it often. There is a serial rapist in our area who targets women who walk. One woman died a few days after she was raped. If I do walk, it's in my neighborhood or on the sidewalk of the main road. We live next to a wonderful park with a walking trail. If DS walks with me, we walk on the trail through the park. DS's height is 6'4".

Joined WW again in November. Lost 10 pounds but it fluctuates due to inconsistent eating and medication. My long term goal is to lose 50 pounds. Vegan eating helps to control but does not eliminate the pain.

I use a pedometer to log my steps. I usually walk 3,500-4,000 steps per day. Wearing the pedometer as I work reminds to walk a few extra steps each time I ambulate through my work sites.

Here I am today-writing details of my life I'd never share with anyone. Why? For my health, I HAVE to lose the weight.

I don't like myself.
I don't love the soul inside of my body.
I beat you to it.
You can't reject liking me. I already do it.
You can't reject loving me. I already do it.
I am safe from others rejecting me.

Yet, they don't live in my body.
Only "I" live in my body.
Only "I" can like myself.
Only "I" can love my soul.
Only "I" can lose the weight.

I've got to get rid of that a$$!

What the he!! was I thinking when I wore that top? It doesn't fit!


















I upgraded to a smartphone a few weeks ago. It is my #2 tool for weight loss. I downloaded my Weight Watchers application (app) before the cruise. I began using it yesterday.

My "OFFICIAL HEAVY WEIGHT" IS: 195 pounds on 4/14/12. My next weigh in day is Saturday, 4/21/12. This will be the hardest and easiest journey of my life........

Feel free to post. I can always use words of encouragement! If you have questions, I'll make an earnest effort to answer them. Have a fantastic day!!!!

Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to experience?

I wish to experience immediate and constant PEACE in my conscious, subconscious and super subconscious soul.
What do you wish to experience?

Wishcasting Wednesday: What do you wish to rise above?

I wish to rise above the lack of passion I feel for my job, creativity and lack of friendship.
I want a passionate job.
I want new breathtaking creativity.
I want new friends who I can relate to in my life.